Change...

One dream ends and another begins. I find myself at an interesting juncture in my life. My dream of a family living happily ever after has been torn in pieces and shot down the drain. And just as I'm trying to come to grips with that my music career is being nudged up to the next level, where other goals are beginning to come to fruition. 

I try to tell myself that it's for the best, that I wouldn't have been able to give my wife the attention she needs and take this next step with my music. I couldn't give her what she needed before, and I wasn't able to accomplish the goals I had for myself the way things were going. 

So now I dig my feet in and brace for the race to come, and try not to think of what could have been. My life will never be the regular tick tock of going to work coming home repeat. This has been a year of constant work. The job, an attempt at school, guitar practice, concerts, all mixed together and shaken well.

With any luck and a lot of hard work this year can be the year I make the transition to being a full time musician. The hardest part is going to be keeping myself organized. For the first time in my life I am dependent on no one other than myself. And I've never been good with keeping things organized. For the first time in my life I see the importance of keeping things straight, setting priorities and getting things done. 

I've never been good at doing what others think I should. I don't want to be. I want to be doing what I find god and important. I've finally set the stage to do everything I wanted.

 And it's showtime.